Sad Mommy

Have you ever seen your child get pushed for no good reason? Why do kids want to hit others? I guess it all goes back to that sin we are born with. We are so mean and selfish even from the beginning. We went to church yesterday and dropped the girls off in the nursery as usual. Both girls were promoted a few Sundays ago so they are in new rooms but mostly the same kids. I always love to peak around the corner to watch Bay play when possible. Bay's new room is now on my way to the sanctuary so you know Mama will be peaking every Sunday. Especially after what I saw this past Sunday. So, I saw her and another girl playing on a slide. They were both on top and then Bay slid down. After the other girl slid, she stood up and pushed Bay and then laughed. Now, this angered me but I thought, "kids are kids, they are mean and push sometimes. It was just one hit. no big deal. it didn't seem to both Bay too much." This was me trying to rationalize the situation since I am not really suppose to be watching in case Bay sees me. These rooms have a two way mirror for nosy moms like me who want to check on their kids. So back to the story: Bay was minding her own business and the girl pushed her again, harder. That's 2 pushes, people. Oh Bay. I love you so. You should have seen the frustration on her face. She didn't know what to do but it made her sad and angry. She scrunched up her face with frustration and sadnness and looked down as she clinched her fist beside her. That was it. I had to step in. As I was about to say something the girl pushed her two more times. That is now 4 pushes. She pushed her from the slide to the changing table. I was so mad. They were behind the teacher and she was changing a diaper. She looked very busy. I told her that the girl had pushed Bay and apologized for intruding. I had never needed to do this before. All through church Bay's expression when she was pushed kept going through my mind and it sadden me so. It brought tears to my eyes. I felt so sorry for her and wanted to protect her so bad. She was completely innocent. When we went to pick her up I saw the girl push her again. This will not happen next Sunday. I will make them fully aware of this bully. I don't know why Bay was the target. Maybe because she is so darn cute. For the rest of the day I talked to Bay about when others push her: "pushing is bad, say 'no pushing', tell your teacher, mommy, or daddy, etc". I am not sure if she understands. I will remind her before this Sunday. I could not fall asleep last night. I think I stayed awake until 1:30 or so just thinking. I kept seeing the event in my head and it brought tears to my eyes. This probably seems silly to people but it truly disturbed me. Since I was awake, I was talking to God and I began to think of Mary and Jesus. Jesus was completely innocent and yet he was nailed to the cross to die for us. I felt I could relate to a small small small piece of Mary's sadness as she watch her son be hurt by others. She could do nothing. I would not have wanted to be Mary at that moment. Thank you God for sending Jesus to die for me. Thank you for your grace and mercy on me. Thank you for your love. You are an awesome God.

Sunflowers

They are finally here! My sunflowers are not very tall but they are beginning to bloom. I have two different blooms. go figure! I guess I need to fertilize them next year. I am definitely going to have more veggies and flowers next year if money allows us. I for sure want to grow pumpkins. I think the girls will be at a good age where they will be able to get excited about it too.

Special Day

Today has been a special day. First, it is Tony's birthday. I like to celebrate birthdays. I like to include balloons, ribbon, streamers, and some sort of baked goods. We are always low on money during birthdays and holidays. This one was no exception. When Tony fell asleep last night, I went outside and drew with Bay's chalk. I wrote "happy birthday" and drew other birthday pictures on Tony's path from the door to his truck. I attatched a balloon and ribbon to his truck. Bay and I have done some special things for him today to give to him when he comes home. I hesitate because I wouldn't want him to read this before he gets home.
Also, Bay knows her name. I asked her what her name was and she said "Bay". She also said "sister" one time which is also true. I saw a monarch butterfly today. I rarely ever see that kind. They are so beautiful. Speaking of bugs and such, I am going to help teach Honeybees for Jesus this year. It starts next Wednesday. I asked that Bay be in another class so she wouldn't be a distraction for me. It should be very fun and also interesting to see Bay learn short Bible verses.

Chalk Painting

Bay loves chalk and she has drawn on our shed door outside once before. It washes off so I don't mind. After a rainy, we went outside and found her wet chalk in the grass. Our shed has a nice little porch on the front of it. So, on the porch part of it Bay started drawing with the wet chalk. It turned into a great finger paint. I made a palette of colors for her which I wasn't able to take a picture of since she wanted to pour water on it. I wasn't about to stop her from cleaning up, right? Ha ha. When she realized she had paint instead of chalk she went to her door and finger painted. I tried to show her how to mix a few colors. Not sure if she caught on to that. Anyway we both had fun and this is the final painting and a picture of our shed that will hopefully become a stage for all kinds of fun stuff once I put up a spring rod and curtain (puppet shows, "fishing", singing, dress up, acting, etc.) I can't wait! There will definitely be posts about those. I think I need to plant a bunch of stuff around the shed and in the pots to add drama and beauty. Got any ideas?

The girls will have to grow up a bit before the entertainment gets good. The best ones will be with both the girls! June is showing signs of being a singer or maybe just one who talks a lot. Yesterday, at the park there were about 4 kids running back and forth screaming. June screamed along with them each time they ran past us. She wants to get up, run, and play with the big kids so bad. Daddy also said that he was giving Bay piggyback rides around the house. Guess what June did? Crawled behind them. Precious! I didn't see it unfortunately. I was at a wedding. Kids are so fun! I think we have them so we can have more kid fun.

blog world

Today is one of those days when you find so many cool people and things in the blog world that it just overwhelms you.There isn't enough time to read all of these. I am sure you all can relate: one link takes you to another link that takes you to another link that takes you to another link, etc... There are so many crafty moms out there. Since I have seen all these cool things, I have a long list of projects I want to do. Unfortunately, I will probably not get around to them or when I find time I will have forgotten where I found that cool project. I may just have to start printing out some stuff. I am also overwhelmed with starting montessori activities with Bay. I am in the preparing and gathering stage since she is only just about to turn 2. I know that if I take the time to prepare she will be able to show me when she is ready how smart and awesome she is. I feel it is my responsibility to provide my child with as much educational opportunities as possible. Children as capable of soooooo much at a young age and I want her to put her skills into action. Plus, I am artisty and crafty and there is no excuse not to make food and educational projects naturally and in a fun way. I need a plan of action. I emailed a lady about this so hopefully I will organize these thoughts and crafts in head and start educating my child in a cool way soon.

We are back!

We are back from St. Louis and I feel like I am trying to catch up on rest. It was a fun trip. I think that the kids handled the stress of traveling pretty well. They got to meet there aunt, uncle, and cousin. Bay loved swimming and walking. She loved running down the hotel hall. Saturday was especially hot outside and while we were doing the VBS in the neighborhood, June got a heat rash all over. She still has a little bit of it now. Bay was so cute dancing to the songs with everyone. She was doing some of the hand motions too. One morning, June was so fussy that I just laid her down on our bed and she grabbed the cover like she does with her blanket, sucked her thumb, and she was out! Tony's dad was watching the pets and house while we were gone. When we got home we checked our garden and found a huge zuccini. Those things must have crazy growth spurts because it was only about 2 inches when we left. We ate it with our dinner that night. It was pretty good. Some of our cherry tomatoes were also ready to be picked. I let Bay pick those. It is a good learning experience for her. She learns her colors because "we only pick them when they are red, Bay!" She gets to taste good organic tomatoes from her own backyard. I think we will have a bigger garden next year. Here are a few pics of the trip, family, and the zucchini.

June Bug

Watch out people, here she comes. June is crawling. Not just slowly in one room either. She crawls all around the house. She has already found Daddy's work boots, Gibson's dog food and water, and the computer cords. I think she is very determined to walk so, who knows, in another month she might. She pats her hands on mine and on the highchair tray so I figured she was ready to paint. She did an awesome job. She painted two pictures. Here are two videos-one crawling, one painting. She crawls much faster now than she did in this video. She is crawling towards an egg shaker. This is a good and inexpensive baby toy by the way. She can easily hold and shake it.